How many of you have done this, you are praying for something you want (whether that be healing, a job, finances to come through, etc), you pray with faith, believing that God can do the impossible, but then you add a simple “but whatever Your will is…” at the end? It’s like saying, God, I want this, and I believe you can do it, but because I don’t want to live in the awkward reality of unanswered prayers, I will pray your will over it, so that I don’t feel bad, and you don’t look bad. I’m going to let you in on a little secret, God’s will is for you to live a full and abundant life.
Now, don’t get me wrong, praying God’s will is a good thing, and it is impossible to make God look bad, He is the definition of good. The bible says that His ways are higher than ours, and His thoughts are not like ours (Isaiah 55v8-9). So I get it, God’s plans for me are better than my plans for me, but I have used “praying God’s will” as a bit of a cop out.
I feel as though this needs a little bit of background: I suffer from a condition that causes chronic headaches. I have had a headache all day, everyday, for pretty much my entire life. My parents taught me the importance and power of prayer, and my entire life they have been praying for healing for me. Ever since I have had an active prayer life, I have been doing the same. For twelve years I have been praying for healing, and for twelve years I haven’t seen much change. As someone who grew up in church, and fell radically in love with Jesus at a young age, this put me in an awkward position. I had to ask myself what I believe about God and His power. Can God heal me? Yes. Does God want to heal me? Yes. Then, why isn’t it happening? That last question is where I have been hanging out for the last number of years. I’ve been stuck in the why.
Now, I am not going to answer that question, so lower your expectations, but what I am going to do, is try to help you move from the why, to a place of not accepting anything less than complete healing.
Recently I was challenged by that thought, I cannot accept anything less than complete healing. Whenever people approached Jesus in the bible, they were healed. People would say to him “if you are willing, heal me.” He was always willing. He met people’s expectation, and set them on a new path. A path of wholeness, a path of fullness of life. Jesus said “I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” (John 10v10). Living in pain, living in want, living in need is less than what God has for you.
I find it strangely comforting that I am not living in complete fullness of life. I have experienced some amazing things, I have encountered God in real ways, and He has changed my life in more ways than I can count. Yet still, in all the goodness I have experienced, God still wants better for me. He still wants me to live a life of more abundance, and I cannot settle for anything less than that. I am not saying that I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am going to experience complete healing, I am still working on that, and I am not saying that because I haven’t experienced complete healing that I need to do more to earn it. God is good, and He gives good gifts to His children (Matthew 7v11). I have seen God’s good gifts in my life, but He wants to do better. He wants me to experience a life completely full, experience a life of complete healing, and a life abounding in His goodness.